God works in mysterious ways...

This year began as a very frustrating year for me, with endless problems that seem to crop up... my self-esteem simply took a nose-dive. I became upset and depressed with everything...

1) I don't feel successful at work...

problems managing the monkeys at teach, not so creative lessons, falling behind my level teachers due to time wasted on classroom management...

There were the days when I simply doubted my own ability and considered a career change...

2) My studies dun seem to go so great...

I haven't been going for lectures and tutorials, just so much things to do that I felt so bummed out. For my assignments, I haven't been able to hand up one on time... God bless my tutors for extensions...

Not such a great student after all...

Just when I wanted to throw in the towel, God reminded me that His ways are higher than mine and I just have to let things work according to his plans... He would not short-change my efforts...

At work, my performance bonus came in and as usual, my bosses are fair... My efforts at work did not go un-noticed. In fact, I'll be getting my promotion (provided I do not do any stupid acts!) By next year, if I do survive this year and not have to repeat, I'll get my emplacement...

Three cheers to more pay!

I'm not materialistic but having more pay is just a reflection that I am getting somewhere in my career...

As for my studies, my hear sank when I read the comments from my tutors... too dramatic in expressing my opinion, not enough supporting argument... blah blah... I thought they would fail me. Instead, I ended up with 75 and 70 for my Psychology assignments and 70 for my English assignment.

Even my church work has praise reports... friends that I have brought to church have accepted Christ and are finding the peace of God in their life... I feel so happy for them!

When doors seem to close, it is not really a closed door. Just that, it is not time for GoD to open them. Even when the doors are not open, his favours continue to pour into your life. He has not forsaken or abandoned us. Just that, we are often blinded because of our own expectations. When the time is ripe, his doors will naturally open and his blessings will pour out so great that you become shocked by the power of his grace.

That's the power of God's love...